I know the reason of my these bad feelings…uhhgg…it’s so difficult to explain, write…It’s difficult for me to understand myself….but it’s not very difficult to understand others.   From outside of me everybody may think that i’m such a cheerful and happy girl…but from inside it doesn’t seem so…why i’m writing all this stuff??…it feels like i’m gonna feel better after sharing it with anybody(especially with strangers)..xD funny.       

It’s easier to reach someething if you know what do u want.I want to reach something, but i don’t know what…again funny.

I’m already 19. Time isn’t running, it’s just flying with the sound “fffrrrrr”…You cannot even feel  the time. From inside i’m still  that self-willed little grandfather’s girl…I understand lots of things,but cannot show that i do understand…

 i’m just writing everything what is on my mind in a hope that i’m gonna feel better.

i know so many wonderful people…but why do i feel like this sometimes…can i find a cure for it?…

i want to read a book or watch a movie or meet a person that will change my life. totally. i need something that will kill my laziness. however i know that i need and just have to find it inside myself…

i love everybody!!!!i love people…

(people can think that it’s a crazy monolog of a drunk person…xD ) but it’s not..=))

i know what’s gonna happen in the end…but i don’t know in what state i’m gonna be there. I’m so afraid of it.I know i need to prepare…

ok…lets finish here.enough.

wish all of you happiness in the end of the time!